Happy New Year: Transparent and Authentic

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How did you ring in last night?  Did you party it up, stay up, or just fall asleep?   I was up in bed as soon as midnight hit. I assume, exactly where i was suppose to be. 
These last couple weeks i have thought about a New Years letter, I have written it in my mind and now I am putting it down. 
I knew I wanted to talk about things i hadn’t shared before and also work better on sharing the in person Sarah, online better (i say that every year) 
If you are a planner or someone that was like me that had an idea how your life would be and you move towards it and then as you roll along realize, this isn’t what i thought at all. This is not the dream i had nor do i feel like myself anymore.  That was me in 2017 when i chose to leave my marriage.  I had been married for almost 11 years and two beautiful babies.  Now, i didn’t wake up one day and just say i was done.  It was an evolution of time and experiencing all the emotions (counseling, marriage retreat) one should go through before they leave.  Was it scary, did i feel like i was breaking my children’s heart, YES! 

BUT, this was the first time I chose Sarah.  

I am a giver to others, I compromise, and often times will find the best in any situation and just make it work.  You can do that to much. You can compromise yourself away and realize so many times you should just say NO, or This isn’t what i want, or you see all these things happening around you that just don’t feel right.  It is easy for you to get taken advantage of and realize you are living someone else’s life not yours, and it’s a sad place to be when you thought you were on the same page. 

(I will say this quickly, love and freedom can co exist.  True love is freedom..)

None the less, i chose to “step back” to move forward.  I knew if i left i just wanted my life and to be the best mom. I wanted to co parent well ( that’s a two person job though haha)  and find the Sarah that had been lost. 
I left a house he just built, most everything in it except my kitchen stuff and began again in a two bedroom apartment.  There were moments where a great deal of failure came over me and moments where i felt as light as a feather, and younger than i ever had. 
I still feel both of those feelings to this day. I am working on the lightness being way more than the failure. 
I realize a literal home isn’t what gives stability, It’s me showing up for my kids like i always had. I realize peace isn’t in things. I could have a little more space in my apartment but i am fine with less stuff. Zip codes don’t indicate success and we can always learn from those around us no matter their demographics.  

I also have began to define, what sets my soul on fire.  What do I want to be that me that was buried deep down. i want to serve more clients that have me ending our time together feeling alive. Not because, everything was perfect but, because they trusted me to hold them for a moment and do the best damn job i could to have them feel better. 
I want to travel, i want to experience health in other cultures and different modalities.  I always think the human body is fascinating and what we do to it, positive or negative, and how that translates. 
I know anxiety and stress all to well and how keeping them in your back pocket for to long can wreck your health, even eating the best food or taking the best herbs (hello hair loss). when you meet me in person you know these things. We will talk about everything from sex to poop (not together unless you need to ) 
i share my strengths because that is why you hired me, but i also share the fact that i am human. Anyone who says they have it all together is lying .
I have worked w a lot of people, those of status, those w a blue check by their name on Instagram and those who are making a bigger impact on the world than most but you don’t know their name.  if they are in for a colonic, someone is really just a human when they are getting a tube up their butt. If i am in their home you realize that money and stuff still doesn’t make someone healthy. 

So 2019, i want to be in more of your homes getting dirty in your kitchens. I want those who desire someone to really understand their life, body mind and spirit and help them reach their health goals based on all three. I want to continue feeling free and be less hard on myself. I want to make sure that Addi and Charlie without a doubt know that I have their back and we are in it together and I’m going to protect their path but let them travel it.  It won’t always be easy or without tears but we will grow stronger.  

Who’s with me?  
I love you all and thank you for letting me share ️

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Pop your Bubble

This is Jumpei, a dear friend. He lives in San Diego, climbs trees in Costa Rica, and brews the best superfood Kombucha. Follow his love and openness here...  Living Organite Jumpei

This is Jumpei, a dear friend. He lives in San Diego, climbs trees in Costa Rica, and brews the best superfood Kombucha. Follow his love and openness here... Living Organite Jumpei

This past week I spent in Anaheim California at David Wolfe Longevity Conference.   This is the fourth conference I have worked. We run a tonic bar, 15 hour days, a whole lot of herbal tonic drinks and superfoods served. It is heart centering but body exhausting.   I get to work with my "family" and best friends. We come together just for this event. Some local, one from Washington, DC and then of course my self, the country girl from Tennessee.   

The first time I went I enjoyed the fact know one knew who I was. I didn't have labels attached as mom, business owner, wife etc.  I was there to serve and I came alive. I got to see people I admired online and through lectures. Some I was impressed by, in person, others not so much.  

One thing I could see is the side of health that isn't healthy. There is a big movement to get the message to a larger audience. To provide the love of Mother Earth, God, and our whole race to a higher level.  What I find is missing is a lot of the people with the message are only presenting their message to those who will understand it and not to those who need to hear it. I see it being spoke to those in their bubble but not in a way that can be heard by those that should listen.  Now, it is ok that you speak your truth in an authentic way, but I do not think it is good to talk shit about those who do not understand when you barely speak their language.  

POP YOUR BUBBLE. I actually said to someone in line that was being ridiculous about the fact we used hotel ice instead of bringing in bags of fresh spring water ice, " Would't it be nice if we all got to choose what bubble we could live in"  Once you know what I know and what she knew, it would be very easy to feel like you needed to live in a bubble. When you walk outside you may breathe your neighbors sprayed lawn, or have to smell someones perfume that is toxic as you eat dinner. We do not always get to choose what is around us unless we live remotely and stay there.   So I do what I can with what I know and I work hard to present my message in a way that is understandable by the masses.  Cause, lets be frank, its the masses that need to hear it. Not the small group that was at this conference.   I also know I have to be honest and upfront when someone is making excuses about their health, and what they are doing is harmful. 

I love those of you speaking your truth about the world and being real, but remember your message is only heard by those in a place to hear it.  If you speak over their head and as if you have information they do not and they must follow you to get it.... Your message is lost.  

If you see me to much in a bubble.... pop it for me,

Love you all,

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My trip to Dallas

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I recently went to Dallas not for the first time, but the first time to be there and enjoy. I had some scheduled appointments, time with a great friend and also to teach a class at the Allen, Tx Juice Bar which is right outside of Dallas.  

Prior to the class I got to meet with my cousin, his wife and new baby who I had not seen in a while.  The class was next door and we had about 20 people in attendance. It was a great turn out for my first class there and the first class they had offered in their location. 

I spoke on weight loss and gut health, two major topics.  Both require a lot of guidance and both are a huge problem all around.  I gain so much during my talks from the Q and A portion. I think it is almost more important than what I am saying. It is the time the audience asks what they want to know. I get an insight on what the "real world" is going through, not what I hear from my bubble or the articles I read.

In the last year, I always get asked about Keto, and intermittent Fasting. Both are currently trends but done right are amazing.  I will not go into details on this post of each, but I will say that neither are ones to just hop into.  Teaching a class I do not know, know the person asking the question. I can only answer generally and from my area of expertise.  What I will say in this post about each is that if your only goal for either is to lose weight, do not do it. You will wreck your hormones and gain the weight back. We have to remain nutrient strong. 

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I also got to connect with a friend I met in 2012 after she reached out to me about my business. She is also a holistic practitioner and we have followed each other on social every since.  I am grateful for her support. 

The rest of the visit was about relaxing and recharging. I was taken to The King Spa and sweat in various sauna/salt rooms. Each room was more hot than the last. Each room was also full of amazing Amethyst crystals. It was nice to detox, relax and recharge. 

I plan on visiting Dallas more, doing more talks and getting outside my bubble.

 

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Motivational Monday: Hoosiers

I have not posted for a while. To be honest I have chose to just relax and not do. I was over doing and feeling like any free moment I wasn't working was bad and you know what........ It didnt' help. It didnt' make my business better, it didn't make my mind better.  It only left me focusing to much on future and not the now.  This clip from one of my favorite sports movies address just that! 

Motivation Monday: Wonder

how many times when you are see a movie trailer do you cry?  Maybe Im the minority, but if it happens I am def going to watch that movie.   This is what happened with Wonder. It is no longer in the theatre but I am sure soon on dvd or Redbox.   I think the mother in me was drawn to the story and knowing, that although my children do not have a disability, we put them out into the world hoping the world treats them kind.  We all know everyone will not but we have to let them Wonder.   I loved taking my kids to this movie.  

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